On February 12, the day my son turned 10 years old, I gave him a birthday present. I told him I would not smoke cigarettes that day.
I made no promises about tomorrow. I took each day as it came. I have not smoked since then, but I make no promise about tomorrow.
Yesterday, I did not [...]
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Somehow, we tend to move on. Learn to live with our grief and eventually it is reduced, but never leaves us entirely.
We learn to live with being poor. Our friends help us. We march on for those we love. In my case I am lucky to have a wonderful 10 year old son. He truly [...]
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Today I am trying to deal with the death of my Mom. I thought I was ready. Now I realize that that isn’t possible.
Suddenly, at the age of 62 I feel like a child who can’t find his mother.
No matter how old she was, the fact remains that she was my Mom.
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OK, this is both a flashback and followup to a post a bit ago. It is the conintinuation of my story, not something currently going on.
Shortly after Christmas four years ago, my then wife, allowed me to move into the home I had saved for my entire life. There were fairly severe conditions and by [...]
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Looking back on our visit to see my ex-wife/son’s Mom, it actually went quite well. If you are one of the thousands who read this blog (LOL) you know that there were moments that I was overwhelmed with fear; fear that she wouldn’t allow me to bring our son back to the USA. The fear, [...]
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Well, we are back in the USA and finally starting to settle in.
All my worries and concerns amounted to nothing in the end. I want to thank those who made supportive comments.
In the end, the visit to Thailand went well. My son got to see his Mom, refresh his Thai language skills, remember his Thai [...]
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The closer the time comes for my son and I to return to the USA from Thailand, the more I worry. I am so worried about it that I can’t bring myself to do or anything pertaining to what I fear. Sometimes I am superstitious I guess.
Last night I made a list of the positives [...]
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It is the rainy season here but, so far, things have been pleasant enough. There is enough rainy for the farmers but no real interuption in going about ones daily business.
Got through a real down period where things we constantly on my mind worrying me. Still not totally comfortable, but am more positive.
Will write a [...]
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After months of living in a condition of filth and desperate emotional pain, the lady at the local shop asked whether I would be willing to give private English lessons to a woman who owned a dressmaking shop. Details were worked out and I began a series of ten lessons for her.
Her primary motivation for [...]
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Friends
Good friends in real life and nice people on the internet can do wonders for a person.
I have fewer people than ever stopping by my blog. Some of that is, no doubt, my lack of input. But I do appreciate the comments and contact that I have here and other places.
I have recently hooked up [...]
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